Disclaimer And Zeitgeist

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They want me to change my thoughts.

Some people seem to be upset at what I’m writing here. Firstly, I write about what has occurred while I’m on the road with The Gods Of Now. What has transpired, gone down through my eyes. This is all about the way I perceive what has happened. Now they want me to go back and re-write or omit some actions. How can I change what has happened? I can’t. This is life. I’m living through it and I relate what happens and how it makes me feel. I’m writing it from my Point Of View, no one else’s unless I say so: usually Zasta’s, Jon’s, or Alex’s story related to me by them.

I don’t regret what happens here on the road. That would be ridiculous. You can’t regret anything that is beyond your control. I simply relate it and filter it through my eyes. Those who are upset about this want me to stop it or change what I’ve lived through by rearranging the words on these pages. To fake it up. Make a lousy meal a good meal or a crappy hotel into a five star establishment. This is censorship. And I’ll never give into that. The very notion of me changing any of this makes me sick. That’s the end of it. What I’m writing is what I’m living through. If you have a problem with that or think you’ve been done an injustice by me or even if you’re entertained by my life’s bent path – leave a comment. I have no problem with that. I don’t give a fuck anyway. If you haven’t noticed, I’m much more preoccupied with myself than with what anyone around me thinks. But if you can convince me that your band WAS amazing or you did a great job or whatever – I’ll be more than happy to write that it in. It’s open ended – like life. You have to make the choice to act on it. Maybe it was all just some big misunderstanding.

Listen, like Zasta so rightly pointed out, there are tv shows and all kinds of shows that make fun of or trash talk celebrities, political figures and, Christ… they make fun of… well… Christ and Allah and Buddha and everyone else who happens to be out there. For fuck sakes – if you can’t take it, what can I tell you? Maybe you should get better at what you do or don’t take it so personally or get therapy. I know some really good Doctors too. Seriously, I do.

If you find yourself in these pages you’ve made an impression on me. You should be happy about that! Not everyone I meet or work with gets that distinction. You, of course WANT it to be a good one. Well sometimes life’s harsh. (Back in the day, Dudes in the biz told me I suck to my face. I got better and they don’t work in the biz no more. Everyone wins!) Sure you want things to work out in your favor. Well, sometimes it works, sometimes it don’t. I’ll talk about both. Conflict is good. I like when things work out as much as you do. I love it when people do what they say they will – but we all know life isn’t like that. It’s all different levels of conflict. Good and Bad. Shit happens. Next week you’ll forget all about it. I already have.

You can see I clearly have an opinion about everything. If you like it, let me know. We’ll most likely get fucking wasted at some point if or when we meet. If you don’t like my opinion, what can I tell you? Leave me a comment and tell me how you do feel about it. Don’t worry – you can’t say anything to me that I haven’t already heard. And if you can – we’ll most likely get fucking wasted at some point when we meet and talk about the “I’m bored of porn” fad that’s going around.

My point is, I’m here on the road because my thought process lets me observe things differently than others. Not any better – just differently. I express it musically and I’m good at it. I worked hard at getting it together and here we are. If anyone likes what The Gods Of Now do, it is up to them. But this blog is about MY life on the road while playing with TGON. About the Gods I travel with and how the Banyion is our home. This is about how I see my place in all of this fucking mess. This is about My issues, which clearly are vast, and My idiocy which is clearly a handicap. This writing is private – only those who read this blog are allowed to read it. So you should be made fully aware that what you are asking me to do by changing what I’m writing here is censorship. And I won’t do it.

END of DISCLAIMER and ZEITGIEST.